Finding Balance in Life

You know what my problem is? Sometimes I get super ahead of myself.

When good things happen in my life, I have the tendancy to get super excited and start planning all sorts of stuff. For example, as I’ve mentioned several times, I’ve been taking cake decorating classes as well as cake baking classes and such. Since that has happened, I’ve had a few cake requests. I have a request to make little cakes for a baby shower on the 22 of this month, and I also have a request for a wedding cake and a pre-wedding cake for the month of October. I’ve been more than happy to take on all of these challenges.

Now what do I need to remember? The unpredictability of Lupus.

The last thing that I’d want is to promise someone that I’m going to make their wedding cake in October, then I go through some crazy wacky Lupus flare 2 weeks before and end up in the hospital. Luckily I haven’t had a serious Lupus flare in quite some time, but it’s also not something to simply just forget about because it can happen.

On top of that, sometimes I just accept and accept projects without considering the fact that I need to pace myself. I’ve had Lupus since I was 14, and I’m still simply not used to “pacing myself”. It almost reads like a storybook: teenaged girl, 14, went from being the student council president, valedictorian and participating on every single sports team to being bedridden and barely able to find the energy to walk 4 feet to the washroom.

I’ve always said that yes, I have Lupus, but no, it doesn’t have me. At the same time, I have to be realistic and not bite off more than I can chew. I just hope that I’m making the right choices and not adding undue stress to myself….though lying complacent would ultimately add stress to my life as well.

I’ll make it through my thoughts and apprehensiveness. I always do.