Sunday, March 9, 2014

Considering the future

Spending a lot of time by myself these last few weeks has really got me thinking. I've been thinking about the future a lot. I'm really looking forward to hopefully (my goal is on or before my birthday in May) securing a proper HR position. I've also been thinking about cleaning up my finances and getting my own place-perhaps a condo or a condo town home (as long as shovelling is included!)

I'm going to be honest. I thought that at this point in my life I'd be a lot...farther than I am right now. I thought I'd be married by now, have at least 1 kid, etc. I know that not everything happens the way WE plan it, and God knows that I'm not one to "settle", but I also know that my circumstances have played a role in my future.

I've been apprehensive about applying for full time jobs in the past. I'll admit it-I've been scared. Scared that I couldn't do it. I was afraid that something would happen with my health and I'd have to miss a whole bunch of days. I'm still scared about that.  I've missed wok because of sinus/ear infections, c. diff, stomach aches, etc...never mind the big stuff, like..joint replacements, kidney transplant, perforated bowel, etc. But, God willing, the real MAJOR surgeries have been dealt with and I can now progress without looking back.

I love to shop-this is no secret. But I've decided to cut way back on my spending habits so that I can save more as well as pay my bills. This way, I can hopefully get my own place. I've been fantasizing about it-I've even started looking online at different units and different town homes...just to see what's out there.  Hmm..maybe I'll play lotto max (the lottery) this week...

No but seriously, as I was saying above, I thought I'd be married and stuff by now, and already living in my own house or my own place with my husband. But, that's not where I am in life right now. Maybe that's what's in store for me, and maybe not. But, I'm not going to be that person who is 40+ years old and still living at home with her parents. In fact, I think living by myself would be a great thing. Being independent, making sure everything is within budget, etc..these are my goals for the next few years.

I don't know that the future will hold-I may meet my husband tomorrow. I may already know him...but I just don't know that he's my future husband yet. Who knows? All I know is that...I'm looking forward to making a change.




1 thought(s):

Crystal said...

I think the same things sometimes. Sorta without the married and children part, lol. I'd like to move forward with a, "normal" life. Although I don't live with a parent, I've always lived with someone else. Whether it was in college, someone coming to live with me, or I to go live with them. I like SOME people and SOME kids, but I realize I like my alone time ALOT!!! I need it.

I think a lot of people have the idea of meeting their sweetheart in high school or college and later marrying them. Buying a house, having a child or 2 and living happily ever after. To me, I haven't got my full freedom yet. I dread wobbling around pregnant. I like to shop too...but for me. So I don't want to spend my money on a kid that cant keep anything cause they grow so fast. Then being married...eh. I don't like to share all the time and I'm not ready for someone sweating me about where I'm at, what I'm doing, why I didn't call them...ugh!

I've learned to never say never. Cause who knows what I will want in the future. I know that I been able to live alone for some years now, but the illness that I have, I like someone there to call 911 or to take me to the hospital. To help me get around, and to do things for me. To be honest, I think I just like the option and the freedom to get rid of people when I want to, lol. Maybe thats what it is.

Good luck in the job hunt and hope you get out on your own in the next couple of years. Talk about shopping. To decorate a condo...I could be online for years shopping!

 
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