I was on twitter just a few moments ago and I noticed that one of the trending topics was RIP. I clicked on it to see who everyone was mourning. At least three celebrities passed away either yesterday or today: Don Cornelius, founder of soul train died. Leslie Carter, sister of Nick Carter and Aaron Carter, passed away yesterday. Mike Kelley, often described as a punk pioneer, also passed away either yesterday or today (at the time of me typing this, the day specific day is unknown). So I clicked on the RIP and saw RIP @kingjadine. So I clicked on the twitter handle.
Her name was Ashley Duncan. Her last few tweets and tumblr entries express just how depressed she was and the fact that she seemed to be crying out for help. The problem is...she was only 17. At that age, myself and my friends would sometimes say things that were meant as a joke. I'm positive that Ashley's friends felt that this was all a joke as well.
Her last tweet is an instagram picture that Ashley took of a gun she had just obtained. Shortly after taking that picture of the gun, she walked to a reservoir and shot herself, presumably with that gun.
I looked through her other pictures that she had on twitter. I almost felt like I was invading...but I looked anyways. What I saw were pictures of an absolutely beautiful girl with a beautiful smile. She looked like she had great friends. One picture was of her when she was a little girl with her father. She stated that she used to be a Daddy's girl..but things change. She also had quite a few pictures of marijuana. It's just so sad...just because someone looks happy and all on the outside..we have to pay attention to the signs that they may not be all that happy on the inside. I don't know if her last few twitter posts were a cry for help or just a declaration of the inevitable. We'll never know.
I feel so deeply affected by this. She was so young. I don't know what it is that happened that affected her so deeply that she felt the need to end her life, but based on some of the things I read on her posts, it may have had to do with a relationship that she was in that had ended. I don't know. She said that she was tired of life and the day that she did not have to live it any more would be the happiest day of her life. I feel terribly that she felt that way. I pray for her, her family, and her friends.