Monday, November 29, 2010

Flu-like symptoms

Man have I been hacking out a lung for the past week or so! I literally slept ALL day yesterday. I woke to eat and sleep. I also woke up in the morning only because my dialysis machine was done and it was time to disconnect.

I'm feeling a wee bit better, but still definitely under the weather. My number one priority is to get better as soon as possible....don't want any silly colds messin' up my transplant plans..


I used my aeroplan miles to get myself this nifty little camera. Maybe when I learn to use it, I can make some vlogs to post to my blog..


P.S.: the pictures of my new video cam were taken with my blackberry torch :)

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Suffering through Flu-like symptoms while kicking people out of my group

As I type through violent bouts of coughs, sniffles, and achyness, I'm thankful that I have a great group member for my Coaching assignment that is due on Friday.

As it stands, my group consists of one other person-Sandra. Most of the other groups in the class consists of 4-6 people. This is a 16-20 page report that we are responsible for producing. This report is about performance management and coaching practices of at least 2 different organizations.

My group did not start off as a group of 2. It started off at a group of 3. But, I had the VERY unpleasant task of having to eject one member out of the group. We all became a group 2 weeks ago. Sandra and I were desperate to get a third group member to reduce our already packed workload, and this third individual did not have a group at all. So after a brief discussion, we decided to allow the third person into our group.

It began to go downhill when the third person did not come to class the following friday. When I sent the person a email via my blackberry, the person responded by saying that he/she was on his/her way. I looked at my watch. 1:30pm. Class started at 12pm. You do the math.

We left class early as the remainder of the class was allotted to work on the assignment. Without any of the third member's work, doing any in-class work would be impossible. What a let down since the assignment was due the following friday. I sent the group member another email at around 2:45, and the response I got was the fact that he/she was still on his/her way. What? That indicated to me that this person probably hadn't even left their house when I sent the first email. Great.

So on the weekend, I set up a google doc page and shared it with my other two group members. The third group member wrote a bunch of stuff on the google doc. After 30 minutes spend editing just 2 paragraphs, I knew there was a problem. I barely understood what the group member was trying to say, and what I did understand was simply not pertinent when it came to the assignment. I asked the group member to send me the performance management document that they were drawing their information from...and they agreed to send it ASAP.

After about 30-45 minutes, the group member responded and said they could not send it now because they were still at school and could not find the performance management document. I sat there, staring at my blackberry, wondering why the group member didn't say this when I initially asked for it. That's ok... I responded and asked them to send it AS SOON as they got home. They agreed and promised to send it.

I was less than shocked when the next morning came and went and I still hadn't received the email of the performance document. I emailed again, just after 12, asking for the document. No response. I emailed again, this time stating that if I did not receive the document within 30 minutes, we were no longer going to use the organization that he/she was working on, and I had another performance document from another company, and I would start from scratch using that company.

An hour had passed. I began working on the assignment with the new performance document. After all, who knows if this group member was going to respond, and I had only a few days to come up with a whole lot of pages of information.

A few minutes after I had started, the group member emailed me and said that they would email the document to me shortly. I responded by saying that I did not want it, and I was starting the assignment with another company. The group member proceeded to send me a partial, non-sensical document anyways, about 40 minutes later.

At this time, I had emailed my prof and explained the situation. I told him that it was my plan to eject this person from my group. He responded and said that I should inform this group member that they'd be responsible for handing in an assignment on their own. After I essentially received the "go-ahead" from the prof, I very politely advised the group member that Sandra and I would be doing the assignment ourselves and no longer required his/her work. I removed the group member's access to the google document to ensure that they did not try to delete the work already done by Sandra.

The group member responded, asking for the work that he/she had done, since it was in the google document that they no longer had access to. I compiled the information and put it into a word document. I had even saved the group member's work, pre edititing by me, into a word doc, but at the last moment I decided to send the already partially edited part with the introduction I had created.

Before I had a chance to respond, the group member lashed out a bit, saying it was partially my fault as well as Sandra's because we did not wait after class for ever for them to show up *rolls eyes*. The group member also stated that their blackberry is slow which is why they did not respond quickly enough to my 30 minute deadline. I quickly shot that excuse down, as I have the exact same blackberry and mine works fine. I also reminded them that I had asked for the document the day prior, and it was technically over 17 hours late.

In the end, Sandra and I managed to bang the project out, in spite of the fact that we both have much to study for and much due, and in spite of the fact that I am about 5 minutes away from hacking out one of my lungs. Go team awesome!

So that's my story of having to eject a member out of my group. It's not fun...but definitely necessary. As the day went on I felt a bit bad and I told my father about it. He reassured me and reminded me that it was necessary for everyone to pull their own weight. What I had asked for was not unreasonable-I simply asked for an email of the performance management tool. If that proved to be such a chore...that's definitely not a good sign.

Oh, I forgot to mention. Prior to ejecting the group member, on Sunday the group member said that they could not work on the assignment anymore because they had an assignment due the next day. Ok. The next day, they once again said they had an assignment due, but if I wanted, they would stay up ALLL night to work on the assignment. Nice attempt at trying to make me feel guilty.

Didn't work.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Colonoscopy and endoscopy results

On Tuesday Nov 9, I had my colonoscopy and endoscopy done. As promised, the doctor drugged me up quite nicely :). Unfortunately, my gag reflex got the best of me. Even though I was heavily sedated, I was still very much awake and conscious of what was going on around me.

When the tube went down my throat, I was gagging like crazy. Gagging to the point of tears in fact! The doctor and nurse both soothed me and repeatedly told me that it would soon be over...which it was.

Next was the colonoscopy. Honestly...I don't remember much about the colonoscopy (and that's an excellent thing). All I really remember about that is the doctor telling me to look up at the monitor that showed my colon, and then being in the recovery room. My sister came in shortly after.

When the doctor came in, she told me that the endoscopy showed that I have some ulcers on my esophagus (eep!). To remedy that, she presecribed me some drugs which will replace the omeprazole. Can't remember what they are called, but it's something like pantoprazole I think.

So now, to take my meds. Here's to hoping these ulcers clear up soon...

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Swollen knees suck

Avascular necrosis at its finest. You'll notice that the knee on the right is MUCH larger than the one on the left. And yes, its painful.


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Thursday, November 4, 2010

The Blood Work Debacle

I cried.

I felt ill.

My world was crashing down on me.

I've said it once, and I'll say it again. If a transplant is not meant to be for me, then surely God has another plan for me, and I accept that. But I wish He would just show me some sort of definitive sign!

Well, watch this.

I went to see my rheumatologist last Thursday. My appointment was supposed to be at 10am. Appointments are rarely on time...and as someone who has gone to many a-appointment in my life, I've grown to accept that. But this time.. I was busy. So, I went up and asked when I could expect to be seen. The secretary told me that I was next. Since I had been waiting for so long, I asked the nurse if she could give me my blood requisitions and I could do my bloodwork now instead of later. She took the requisitions into the doctor that I'd be seeing before my real rheumatologist, had her sign the reqs, then gave them to me so I could do the bloodwork.

I went to do the bloodwork. Total amount of time that I was gone- about 5 or 6 minutes. At this point, it was already after 11am. When I came back, much to my horror, the secretary told me that the doctor took the next patient.


She KNEW that I went to do blood work, and she (she=the doctor) KNEW that the clinic has it's own phlebotomist (Sister Esther) so why would she not wait a few minutes for me when I just waited almost an hour for her???

I was livid. I told the secretary to book me another appointment because I was leaving. I wasn't leaving necessarily because I could no longer wait, but I was really angry. Well, aside from that, if this doctor took an hour with the last patient, how long would she take with this one that she just took in?

"Please don't leave!" the secretary implored. I asked her how long the doctor would take..knowing that she'd have no idea. I knew I wouldn't stay unless I was going to be seen by a doctor in the next 5 minutes. She told me the next available appointment wasn't until February 2011. I told her to book it.

As the secretary very slowly and reluctantly booked the appoinment (she was clearly trying to think of what she should do to get me to stay) my REAL doctor walked out. Much to the secretary's relief, she told the doctor what had happened, and he quickly told me that he'd see me directly. Thank goodness.

So he and I went in and chatted. I told him that I was worried about my blood results and apparent trend that seemed to be leading towards a lupus flare.

When the doctor looked at my bloodwork on the computer, he saw something very peculiar.

Get this.

There were TWO sets of bloodwork for me on August 12. 1 set was normal (what my bloodwork usually looks like) and one set that was completely off. If I had drawn blood twice that day (which I hadn't) it would have been impossible for someone's blood work to change so radically.

The verdict?

All this time that I've been stressing, making myself ill, crying, etc..I had been crying over blood work that had incorrectly been uploaded to my profile. Those blood results belonged to someone else.

My doctor said that this was the first time he had seen such a thing in his whole career as a doctor.

On one end of the spectrum..i'm ECSTATIC that I'm not currently having a lupus flare. But on the other side...why me??

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