Sunday, July 5, 2009

I feel yucky

Today was a yucky day. I felt majorly nauseated all day. Luckily I had a pretty good day at work. Sundays at work are always great. There's a comfortable vibe on Sundays...very laid back.

I felt pretty emotional today. My stomach hurt, school is busy...there's just too many things to worry about. I now know better than to take 5 courses at one time. From here on end I'm not taking any more than 4 classes at one time...I don't care if it takes me longer to finish school! Anyhow, in terms of being emotional, I just knew that if someone, anyone, said the wrong thing to me...I'd break down into tears. Luckily that situation never came up...and that's always a good thing.

I was relieved when 3pm came along and I knew it was home time. I asked my mom to take me to the grocery store so I could buy some tummy friendly foods. I also thought i'd be a good idea to buy some snack foods that I can take to school, especially on that murderous day known as tuesday: (8:30am to 11am: HR class. 11am-12pm: spare/lunch. 12pm-3pm: math class. 3pm-6pm: accounting. 6pm onwards: collapse!) I usually find myself purchasing the unhealthy snacks between Math class and Accounting class, so a stash of baby carrots will certainly be a better choice. Being on prednisone makes you prone to that dreaded sticky outie tummy, and I need to be aware of that.

Anyhow, while we were there, my mother quietly called me over to where the broccoli was in the produce section. I wondered why she was whispering. When I got closer, she showed me a whole lotta broccoli florets that had been ripped from their stem and tossed back into the bunches of broccoli. What happened to the stem? My mother non-chalontly motioned in the direction of a middle aged lady. My mom told me that she saw the woman standing by the broccoli. When my mom approached, she witnessed the woman ripping the tops off off the broccoli and throwing them back...and she kept the stem! Who DOES that?? The broccoli was priced per bunch, not by weight! Did she want to make broccoli soup? You need the florets in broccoli soup to make it look pretty!! Was she going to con the cashier and make them give her the stem for free because there were no florets attached to it? Weird! I guess I'll never know why that perfectly normal looking woman ripped the florets off the top of that broccoli stem..

I haven't gotten as much work done this weekend as I would have liked. I just haven't felt the best. I think I'm making myself ill with stress. I need to chill out...do some yoga, meditate, get a massage...ANYTHING! I don't know...I'm just afraid of defeat I guess. In computer class, out of all the tests/assignments that we've done, I'm currently getting 38/38. Can't complain about that. In math, the last test that we did, a test that I was convinced I had failed miserably...I got 85%. On the accounting mid term test, I got 93% or 28/30...or the best mark in the class!! :):). In project managment, I got 87% on the midterm. I don't have my HR mid term mark as my teacher forgot to pick my test up from the test centre and is yet to mark it 3 weeks later. On the quiz we did in HR, I got a miserable 53%. This test was only with 2.5% of our final mark so I really need to get over it...but I don't like getting low marks...period. That 2.5% is well on its way to giving me an ulcer.

Anyhow, I'm going to lie down on my bed, close my eyes, and listen to the soothing sounds of men beating the tobacco out of each other a la UFC.

1 thought(s):

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